A confused woman

your comments can do a great job to this blog and personally to me 

One viewer commented on my fashion tips “what to have this month”. He made me wonder why am I blogging about fashion. He was right who am I to talk about fashion, it not like I'm a stylist, fashion designer or something related. I’m not either of these things, but an ordinary student, who loves to write, read and reason! I then thought, maybe it better I talk about what I at least think I understand and can argue.

Maybe I should talk about my life, or law (that can also help me in my studies) or maybe concentrate on politics because I understand it. What about humanities, religion, or culture, maybe gender, or relationship and love. Or I should just make this a celebrity gossip or varsity gossip blog!

I'm confused! What should I talk about? Well I'm a woman it is in our nature to never know what exactly we want. It in us to want this today and don't want it tomorrow! I shouldn't be ashamed of that. As much as I might not see the direction yet I know it moving forward! Like a person who swims with their eyes closed, they cannot see where there are going, but there a moving forward lead by their hands. Likewise, I'm going to let my heart lead me. And blog about what I feel in that moment.

Considering the comment. Although I'm not a fashionist, stylista or so forth, I will still blog about fashion. I will still talk about whatever I can in this blog.

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 Peace and Love @Somto_N

what's in for me? faithful a concept of selfish

Faithful a concept of selfish!

After two days of not updating my blog, I've become aware how difficult it is to be loyal and faithful. I see people around me failing to keep this principle of faithfulness. However, i have noticed how they (we) turn to be 100% faithful to things that are beneficiary to them. True? False? It depends on a person? .

To most of you, when we hear the word ‘faithful’ we quickly think about faithfulness in a relationship. While, being faithful actually expand to almost everything we do and to those around us. Like, being faithful to your pledge, your debt, your diet, job, friendships, and even to yourself (particularly, your own words).

I know one can be true to himself and to these above mentioned things yet being faithful is another story! Faithfulness in this context means adhering firmly, reliable, and devoted to something. Words like vows, loyal and promise (these are the hardest things a human can keep, even a mother to her child she sometimes fail to keep them, a pastor at a church, a lawyer to the law, a spouse to his spouse, a student to her studies) also define faithfulness!

Being faithful it a life style, it not something that you wake up and you able to do. It grows with you. It a skill you teach yourself and guide it with rule. It is impossible to be faithful without having some boundaries or some rules.

It not easy.

     Oh! Maybe it is, if something is in for you. Am I going to be gaining something?

Thus, it is that faith that keeps us faithful. Faith that good thing(s) might come out of being faithful. Hope that being Faithful will pay off.  

Does it mean we are become faithful in a hope of achieving something for ourselves?

For example, Do Christians stay faithful to God (Jesus) because they know there faithfulness will lead them to heaven; does staying faithful to your partner motivated by the hope that they will love you more or they do the same; being faithful to your pledge because you believe to get more out of it?

Are we becoming a selfish nation? Are we entering in an individualism era? Are we that selfish that everything we do have to be beneficiary to us? Can’t we be faithful and do something out of kindness (not the bursary/ scholarship kindness because they benefit for giving out scholarships, less tax) and do not expect anything back?

Answer to these questions varies or/and unknown as we don't know who to blame. As though we are so self centered we cannot blame ourselves. It is never you, ME, it someone else, it’s something else.

What is it, that should we blame; Capitalism, civilization, slavery, apartheid, nature, Government, government policies, globalization, religion, culture? Who? What?

As a selfish nation we have to blame someone or something for our inability to be faithful! Does blaming someone or something help us at all?

I’m a part of that nation! In my first post I promised to treat this blog like a child, be loyal to it and check it every day. Two days have passed. Wasn’t Faithful. I didn’t keep my promises. Is it because I’m not getting paid out of this blog? Is it because I feel like no one reads my blog? Is it because I’m not benefiting from this blog? I’m the part of the SELFISH society. Because maybe I would be more Faithful to my blog if I was getting something out of it.

In concluding, have you notice you hardly see people who are being faithful to something which they are not benefiting from. In this century people put their energy, time and money to something that gives them something at the end of it. they should be something in for them. But, do you blame them for being unfaithful to things that they don't benefit from? is Faithful a concept of selfish?

Peace and Love 
                      @Sonto_N

 

a gift that you can never exchange

Gifts are usually something given to someone without payment, usually valuable things. For example, wedding gift, birthday gift, etc. Family (all members of it, mother, father, siblings) is one gift that one can never exchange. you can choose not to be part of their lives, or abandon them. whatever you choose they will still be the people who brought you to this world. I'm saying family is one gift that you can never exchange also because it different from other gift that you receive from friends. it something you can choose (pick from the market, shop), it people you share blood with, persons who's genes are transmitted to you, they are your biological(s).

This other day, i was listening to radio. where they mentioned some scenes of the TV show "Khumbula Ekhaya". while sitting there i started having thought, and i realized families are different. different people have different experiences with family. some families are good, others not so good, others poor, others not so wealthy as they wish. Many people i have chilled with, they have said different things about their families. As a child, you cant chose your (biological) parents or siblings but parents chooses their family. they choose in a way that they chose who they marry, who they have sexual relations, choose whether to have a baby or not. likewise, when I'm older, i will chose my family (husband, which later we create a family). unfortunately, my son or daughter would not have the privilege to chose his or her biological parents which are his or her family.

When i was writing this, i imagined myself as a young teenage kid who is faced with troubles in the  city he founds himself at. he have friends who talks highly of their families. he have never had the experience of family which his friends talk about. So he's sitting there thinking of the gift called family.

How I wish I had a family

As I lay down, I wonder if I had something called family or I was just an orphan from a home?
Do I have a mother, father, sisters or brothers?
Is there a place I call home, where I can run to when it rains?
Is there someone called family who I can share my troubles with?
As I ask these questions
I wondered if there was ever someone called family
I wondered if there was ever a thing called family
while on that thought I then remembered Christmas Days.
There was mother, father, sisters and brothers, I saw their smiles, as they hug me, as they give me gifts, as they tell me anytime u need me I will be there for you, as they put me to sleep in clouds, sleeping with a joyful heart and everlasting smile.
I was awake, and realize that Christmas was a dream. Actually I'm neither an orphan from the home(at least she have a home) nor have a family. I'm a snake, was born and breed without family. Family was a sweet dream and as i wake up I knew it was a nightmare.

How I wish I had a family
How I wish I had them (it), to tell me "its will all come to pass"
Because: As I tell myself everything will be fine,the worse it get.
I remember when the struggle started
How I struggle, and call for help
But it was like the help runs away from me.
I cried to it (family), but it like I'm screaming to a deaf person.


I've heard people talk of good things about Family
I hear them say it the best thing everyone needs
They said it saves and rescues you from the evils of the world.
It protect you from the dust and temptations of the earth, because it surrounds you with the ocean.
They told me, Family hold your hand and cross the red sea and walk in fire with you.

Standing alone in the dark, I asked
Family why won't you hold me?
Why won't you talk back to me?
For a minute I remembered it can't answer me because it not there.
I wish they can not talk of you
I wish they can not tell me about you
At the same time I wish I had you.
Oh Lord how I wish I had a Family....

(by Nomasonto Ndlovu: the Dark Heart)
Peace and Love
@Sonto_N

what to have this month

What you wear says a lots about you. Your social status is presumed, your attitude is seen, even your background can be analysed through your dressing code.  In this society, cloths (colour) are used as tools for communication. 

Black is associated with darkness and formality; wonder why black have to symbolize such, I’m sure Devil is black. In funeral people wear black cloths (beside in township funerals where people wear colour blocking cloths…LOL), and lawyers and judges in court wear black. While white is associated with light, goodness and purity. Unlike black, white is considered to be the colour of perfection. When going for baptism we normally wear white, doctors who save our life wear white, etc. This communication through cloths (colour) goes way back centuries. ‘Izikhothane’ are a good example of what I’m talking about when I say cloths can say a lots about you.

Talking about cloths (colour) and their ability to send message to the audience, today I wake up so late and tired, I put on my Mr. Price t-shirt, pants and shoes. Then I rush to class, in which i was 10 minute late…#sight. People were asking me if i didn't sleep, was i studying whole night? WDF!! i did sleep and no i didn't cross night.  maybe the reasons why they asked me such questions was because the way i was dressed.(see the pic)
  

Ok, enough! my aim was to share some hot clothing items which I think a girl should have this month. I’m leaving this discussion of cloths being the instrument of communication for another day.

What to have this month… 
1. A bralet top (crops)

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2.       2. A skater (Hi low) skirt

3.       3. Neck piece- collar statement necklace

Peace and Love @Sonto_N

starters instead of Sunshine....SMH

  This feeling i'm feeling....WOW!!!!


Do you know that feeling you get when you doing something for the very first time?                
Arguing with the inner person; write that! No! Don’t write that, don’t say that. Until I convinced myself that anyway NO ONE IS GOING TO READ this. It’s my Diary. This is how I'm feeling right now..
I wanted to name my blog as Sunshine, instead I wrote Starters really?? Starters! Who name there blog as Starters? But I'm blaming it all on the nerves. I was so nervous and excited at the same time when creating this blog. I end-up messing up the name #SMH. Now I see, how kids out there turn out to have “extraordinary” names, this is what happens to parents when naming their babies the day there are born. Mhhh, excitement can ruin things sometimes….LOL

A blog is like a baby, I'm a parent, and my readers will be like siblings and relatives to this blog. Like a child that's how I will treat my blog, so its develops and prosper. Every day from today i will be devoted to this page, I will visit and share stuff in here. My baby is a day old today. As a parent I'm so happy. If you are wondering, I’m a single parent! Single as I am, I’m so happy and hoping to raise my baby until death do us part. No! maybe not death, but rather until i have no excess to the internet, LOL. As for readers, I can’t exactly comment on how you will treat this child. Since relatives in any family are the most complicated people. There is that uncle who always act like your dad, that Aunt who always complain about your mum (Makoti) and that cousin who is a bitch or too hot and you wish they are not related to you. So what I’m trying to say is, I will expect the unexpected.

"Life of a Student" that what motivated me to start a blog. I will be sharing pictures, my creative work, and thought about everything and anything. This is more like a Daily Diary. However, unlike ordinary diaries this one will be filled with more crazy, funky, random and funny articles, photos, etc. Be warned, I might be posting my unprocessed thought and information here. I’m a Gemini (best excuse ever). I’m hoping I don’t offend or hurt anyone on this blog.
 
Peace and Love @Sonto_N.